Catatan 'hidup'

⚠️ caution: for someone who feels uncomfortable or struggling with depression it is advised not to read the content. Date: Tuesday, 8th February  To: H Subject: <> H, lately I'm thinking that being happy is a sin, that i have to pay off everything I have stolen from everybody they have the more rights in. But life is always complicated,right?  and I merely want to tell you a story, my little story.  To living a life is not easy, we have to do the things we don't like and being told to fulfill the standards, everything needs to be fixed when they are different, and you know I got exhausted of being shaped out. Have you ever felt like burning out of life, H?  But still, I am here, ready to offering you a hug, we can go somewhere they don't know the place. there will be just us sitting on the bench, talking about stuff and why do the world doesn't give some comfortable space for someone good like you and compeletly obnoxious people like us. Here, take the pills, ...

  I don't think that this one is the best achievement in my life but, I want to share this still, to put it down here so that if someday I'll be face in some complicating situation, these words would probably be my answer- -- as much as i understand, as much as i have learned. It happened sometimes ago, I didn't release things as much as I did before such writing, drawing nor something else that I always do when I'm going too deep on my mind. It feels like a full break, to taking a rest of my mind, my heart and soul - to find an escape from all these busy living, and it turns out great. --- I start to look for what's around and i found them more interesting somehow--- not to even ask myself is it me happy or neither I am, surprisingly I met some new friends--  doing some busy things that everyone else does, and I had found that some of cool things aren't always meant to remember and to be kept in memories, but they just there, supposed to be feel and to be dis...