reminder: you are essential

 I don't think that this one is the best achievement in my life but, I want to share this still, to put it down here so that if someday I'll be face in some complicating situation, these words would probably be my answer- -- as much as i understand, as much as i have learned.

It happened sometimes ago, I didn't release things as much as I did before such writing, drawing nor something else that I always do when I'm going too deep on my mind.
It feels like a full break, to taking a rest of my mind, my heart and soul - to find an escape from all these busy living, and it turns out great.

--- I start to look for what's around and i found them more interesting somehow--- not to even ask myself is it me happy or neither I am, surprisingly I met some new friends--  doing some busy things that everyone else does, and I had found that some of cool things aren't always meant to remember and to be kept in memories, but they just there, supposed to be feel and to be discovered by yourself, to experience new stories without interfering the past as well.

We undoubtfully have yesterday, tomorrow and one absolute thing is we. have. today.
Even if we still have sadness and grieve in the bottom of our heart, life is still worth living and it'll always be,
don't put yourself being a background and the shadow of dimming light, so fade- almost invisible when you are totally capable of being the part of spotlight itself. show us what you are.

And to achieve those things, I'll tell;
we all deserve to be happy, to being careless, to being the best version of ourselves and all, you are capable to get all the goddamn things you once think you are not.

I know we will still sometimes have these tears falling down when we are alone, or even in a cold rain night when your mind suddenly double-cross someone you ever like but that doesn't mean
we have to be negative the whole time--- because time, world and oppprtunities are limited and sadly they don't give you space for wait,
since all the dark thoughts, they can be simply stay forever when you told yourself to stuck with it, and most of us didn't realize what do they plant on in their subconscious mind; being sad, envy, not enough, unpleasant, unsatisfied, unlove, insecurities, some people decided to living in that way, blaming up the vicious circle they made.

But it is okay to kept them, however. I am not asking you to take them all away. somehow, our lowest point will still be the part of us, and we can never deny them. But the happiness in front of you--- they work the same way. They have the same worth of live. Even when you have told yourself you are okay of being unhappy I'm sure at the same context you are more okay of being the extra-happy as you can be, and stop thinking that your world has stopped since they don't give you what was supposed to be yours because they were still not whatever you take to reaches them, but now, let's exhale anything that make your lungs heavy. it is time to letting go of things that is never worked out, believe me world is will be really nicer once you free yourself from these boundaries who's tell you not to be.

And now our past story is ending here--- there will be no next question you had asked before, there will be no such answer, and they are not essentials anymore, for reprioritize what's matters, and you are would never being the bottom in your lists anymore.