The ending of such thing.

 You wouldn't have to convince yourself that you're okay when you really are

hey, this is one of my writing--- again, and i don't think that it will be the best part of me but however, i want to share this still, to put it down here so that if someday i'll be face in asking this and that situation, it'll be my answer--- as much as i understand, i don't know about the rest.

Not a long time ago, but i just had found myself realizing that i don't write as properly as i did- before, and i was a little surprised of that too, because it is, it was not really me i used to think to be-- but because im happily ok and tired with that busy living--- i don't have much time to spare in my other world as such imagining a thing and started to looking around for what's in around me and i found it more interesting--- i don't even asking myself either i am happy or not at all, surprisingly i met some new friends-- i do some busy things that everyone else's do, and i found that some of cool things aren't meant to remember, but it supposed to be feel, and to create a new without gettin rid of the past.

We have time, we have memories, we have present, and also; we have future and what i can now say is your head would never get full of every new journey, of course we'll still have that such clumsy things in that bottom of our lungs, that we want to hide it-- but to make a worth living, we all deserve to being happy, to being don't care, to being the best version of every ourselves, and all. I know we'll still have that tears falling in our own room or when the rain is pouring but it doesn't mean that we have to being that sad and unsatisfied the whole time--- because time is always limited, right? And your sadness, your guilty, your anxieties, your insecurity can be stay forever just if you want it, just if you want to kept it.

But it's okay to kept it, i am not asking you to make them all away because somehow, there'll still be the part of us, and we can never deny it. But, the happiness in front of you--- you neither can deny them too-- it has the same worth of your living even if you had think yourself, you are okay of being unhappy im sure then you deserved to more okay of  being the extra-happy as you can be, and stop thinking that your world has stopped since they don't give you what was supposed to be yours because it was still not whatever you take to get it, but now--- it's time to letting go of things that is never worked out, believe me everything is will be really okay once you free yourself from every boundary that told you not to be. And now your past story is ending here--- there will be no next question you had to asked before, and there will be no such answer, not even one because you no longer wanted that. there will be no longing and there will be no hate, no curse and no point of regretting. there will just be just nothing that ended up such everything-- everything that now no longer deserved to being something.